Escapism

In the corner of my room I sit and cry, try to gasp for a breath Feels to be stuck in a loop hole of life and death I feel hopeless I have a shattered heart and a desire which died "I will heal and get better" I said but never tried I am the monster of my own life I wish one day I also thrive I am like the stagnant water of the lake A person with no progress A personality that feels so fake "Leave me alone" I tell the world But the next moment I feel lonely And want to be heard All the voices in my head Are making me feel dead A world without me would be a better place I tell myself