Erase parts of my life

I want to erase lines of my life Because in it I have people who hurt me more than a knife would Their words are like stab wounds the bitter the words the deeper the knife Even the ones that are family Makes me hold enmity If only I could erase it all things could be different Because the marks of this life are permanent Along with traumatizing and hurtful past That follows me everywhere I wonder how long that would last Maybe I can just pray things change or gets better Cause I forgot I am not the writer