Emptiness

Life feels empty. I feel empty. Clueless, if there is any path further and if there is, which one to choose. I hate myself, I hate looking at the mirror. Searching for light in a path which is absolutely dark. Prayers are in vain, and I question myself if it is necessary to pray anymore, if there is, what to pray for. Hating the newspapers, hating the books, hating everything. Do I deserve this phase ? Only God knows. Is there a hope for light at the end of this phase ? Again God knows. What mistake did I do ? I cant figure out any. Why did I put myself through this, through all the sacrifices, countless days of depression ? I dont know. For now, the only thing I focus on is to bring myself back and to feel alive again