Emptiness

Am I really so unlikeable makes me feel like all the pals I've had throughout the years were just there no special or side attraction I am not ok I want to scream it so loud buy only I can hear my own cry for help inside my own head that tingling feeling you get when you feel overwhelmed and want to scream at the top of your voice like you are caged within your own pain I have a pain running through my spine and every ounce of muscle in me like I could tear out my own skin to stop the pain Stop! Please stop!!!! I feel all alone despite being surrounded by people that void in the heart that I so desperately want to close that thirst! that need! that desire I need to fill help me!!! I'm drowning in my own misery save me!!! SAVE me!!!