emptiness

why feel sad when life is so full of wonders? why feel sad when you're alive and thats all that matters right? My happiness suddenly seems out of reach. I start sinking. Meaning crushed me then left me dry. My stale stupid self slithers up my thigh. I'm losing my connection who will prove my existence if I never stop dropping in my bottomless ocean? Who will ever find me if I become a trace of who I was? my soul descends deeper as all meaning seems absurd. nothing matters after all.