emotions

I'm a mess thinking of the stress I caused Guilt filling me stress and deppretion eating me alive put a fake face on tell myself "your happy what do you mean?" emotions flipping inside of me knowing were better off no where near ready to countinue without you some day's I regret everything other's I dont Feeling guilty moving on I'm not ready to leave without yoou memories filling my head while tear's fill my eyes thinking of you is the hardest thing other than losing you my mind like a prison my sanity gone I loved you yet couldnt tell if its worth this feels like hell missing you I'm not ready for this hate you but hate missing you dont know what to do I'm numb but also in pain fighting the erge to say I'm sorry my emotions a mess my head filled with you