ek ladki ki chahat

"Main zyada nahi chahti thi..." Bas thoda sa pyaar… thodi si parwah… ek baar tu khud se poochhta, ‘kya main theek hoon ya nahi?’ toh shayad sab kuch theek lagta. Main har baar teri taraf badhti rahi, aur tu har baar mujhe chup karaata raha — kabhi ignore karke, kabhi busy kehkar, kabhi kehkar ki main aisi hi hoon. Par kabhi socha hai? Jo ladki har roz tujhmein apna sab kuch dhoondhti thi, aaj woh khud mein kho gayi hai — sirf teri khamoshi ke wajeh se. Mujhe rehna tha… sirf tere saath. Na zyada kuch chaha, na tere waqt ka hisaab kiya. Sirf ek chhoti si jagah chahiye thi — tere dil mein, teri fikr mein. Par ab lagta hai... main hoon bhi ya nahi, ye bhi tujhe mehsoos nahi hota. Main thak chuki hoon… sab kuch seh kar bhi tere liye muskuraane se. Tujhe khone ka darr toh hai, lekin khud ko khone ka darr ab aur zyada hai. Isliye ye mera aakhri paighaam hai — main tujhe har din chaahti hoon… par main apne aap se ab aur dagaa nahi kar sakti. Agar kabhi tujhe meri yaad aaye… toh yaad rakhna, ek ladki thi jo sirf tera ho jana chahti thi… aur tu tha, jo sirf khud mein hi busy tha.