Ek koshish firse

Aaj kaafi mhino baad kisine meri tasveer li aur fr ehsaas hua k ye kya h ?? M toh aisi nhi thi...itni badsurat?? itni kamjor...itni tooti hui...Wo bhi kiske liye?? jis shaqs ne mujhe mudkr ek baar bhi nahi dekha....Jisne mujhe pucha bhi nhi k m ro rhi hu, m mar gyi hu ya m zinda hu?? Ya maine khana khaya ya nhi ?? Jo shaqs kaha krta tha k M zindgi hu uski....Usne mujhe apni zindgi ka ek Katra bhi nhi smjha...Kya haal krlia tha maine apna ye?? Kya hogyi thi m ??? Aaj khudko itne arse baad gaur se dekha aur fr yakeen maano mujse khudko dekha hi nhi gya ....khudko dekhke ghrina si aagyi k kya haal krlia h tune apna?? kya ek shaqs hi teri Dunia, tera jahaan tha?? kya baaki dunia aur baaki dunia k log kuch b nhi hain tere liye?? kya Zindgi itni Mamooli h tere liye?? jo chehra dekhke log jeete the aaj us chehre ko dekhke khud hi jeena acha nhi lga?? kisliye...Aaj se m aage bdhungi...Aage bdhungi aur Sambhaalungi khudko....khudke liye....Jisse m khudko dekhke ghrina nhi proud feel kr sku...M khudko frse behtr bnaungi dusro k liye nhi khudke liye...M frse khudse mohabbat krungi.....Ek shaqs hi toh tha jo gya h.....Haan Dil toota h pr m koshish krungi frse ek baar jeene ki...!!! Aur is baar kbhi na tootne k liye..!!