ECHOES Of UNCERTAINTY

Why ? always the second or third wheel? Am I not fit to be the engine that drives you? I've been fueling my dreams for four years, burning the midnight oil, but it seems I'm still running on empty. How If hard work is the recipe for success, then why am I still hungry for a job? I've been searching high and low since December '19, but it seems I'm still lost in the job market. Why? Am I not the Romeo of my own story? Why do tears always rain down my face? Am I Samson, strong one minute, weak the next? Don't let my cute face fool you, I'm a bear with a grudge. I'm not all good, but they say everyone's bad in someone's story, and indeed she's the villain of mine. Why this bitter pill to swallow now? Why did you not tell me all these years that I wasn't the chosen one? After everything I've done for you, you're telling me now that I'm not the one. I know my other self is there to pay back my lobola, but know that I was counting on you. Seven years, two months, and three days are all gone. Was this patience helpful or just a labor of love in vain?