easier for me

you already know, that I speak german, cause I wrote that once but I write poems in english do you know why ? maybe because I am a loud water maybe because it is easier for me when I write about deep stuff in another language because it somehow doesn't feel so real anymore I don't have to hold back so much tears anymore like not five tears now there are only two you know, what I mean ? I don't know why because it actually makes little sense Tell me, do you understand ? Do you feel, what I feel ? or am I the only weirdo here ?