dyskiyo..

you asked me explain to you. so I will do my best. I didnt fully comprehend how truly,madly,unconditionally and uncontrollably I love you.. until I pushed you away completely. the day we said our final goodbye. something truly broke inside me.. I felt as if I was only surviving and it wasn't for my own happiness anymore.. I lost my meaning. its crazy.. how we've been apart for so long, yet still madly in love with one another. you know I drove down to the harbor once a week for 4 months straight.. hoping to run into you.. to just catch a glimpse of my evergreen.. my reason to breathe. I know how badly I hurt you.. and I understand needing security time and patience.. but if you were to ask me where I saw myself in 5 years.. you know what the first picture is.. you.. youre all I ever see. we met by meer chance.. but was it?.. to me. I feel as if I was made for you.. that my mind body and soul belong to you.. and you alone. no one has ever made me feel.. what you've made me feel.. I've never loved someone ao unconditionally that nothing they could ever do or say to me.. would make me fully leave.. my heart has never ever left yourside.. although my physical body left.. I've been yours since the very