Dying inside.

Loosing happiness and hope. Being alive but not truly living, just surviving. Does not feel much , but just numbness and sadness, The deep hole in my heart, Slow crippling of my soul. The pain and sorrow I can no longer bear. Sleepless nights, depression trenting. Suicidal thoughts, making life a boring event, tedious and unappealing. The feeling of being disillusioned and Isolated from others. My soul feels shattered, like I'm constantly breaking. Each day passes, and I'm slowly losing the will to live . Having heart palpitations, my stomach in a not , my head is about explode. Trying hard to get my mind off of bereavement. My anxiety is drowning me , feeling like , crying and screaming. Every day appears with a question mark? Until when , struggling with prolonged grief. feeling very empty, can't find joy in anything Surely it's not easy to die inside. without knowing how to hide your pride . Not finding any purpose in life .