Dying inside

- is it ok to cry, when you're dying inside. - if I held it in for too long, and let these tears make a tide. - if I became vulnerable and tried to confide, but walked away feeling like I've been denied. - would I be justified then, or would the concern be set to the side. - it's like my emotions collide, I hold it all in with nowhere to hide. - so when I'm asked what's wrong, I can't really decide.. - Should I pretend to be fine, or let my pain subside? - Should I pretend to be strong, or let my tears be my guide? - I feel like I'm dying inside, an unexplainable torment. - so when I say I'm ok, I don't know what to say but it's not what I meant.. - but deep down, I wish someone would see through my disguise. - And offer a shoulder for my tears to baptize. - instead I have to find a way to cope, cus we live in a world of hate. - Where emotions are belittled, and vulnerability isn't seen as great. - please excuse my grieving heart, it's endured a lot of loss. - I need to find some inner peace, by any means no matter the cost.