dumb or dumber?

when you want to write. but can't seem to find anything to say.. as if your mind and body have completely stopped corresponding together.. I just sit here and wonder. why am I wired so differently. why am I so hard to love and difficult to be around. should I just stop talking completely. it'd probably help me in the long run. Im a child in an adult body.. I dont know why I say and do things sometimes but it isnt intentional.. uh.. my heart aches. I just want you to never go again. ill do better im sorry..