Drowning in my soul

DROWNING IN MY SOUL Frustration seeps in like a flood, Slowly but surely, it fills my blood. I feel my body giving up, my soul too tired to fight. Days have turned into nights and nights into days. Too afraid to sleep, I stay awake whole night My mind isn't helping much, overthinking is the part it plays. Reality is more safe than my sleep. Nightmares are those moments that were once my memories. My thoughts far from this world, they are now more than deep. Am just a body with its soul far away, looking like one of those zombies The Heat rises, a fire in my chest I can't contain it, I must confess If this world was a game, I'd be on my last life For the pain I feel feels like like a cut of a knife Even though I try to be happy at times, the pain I feel deep down my heart never dies I tried therapy and so many things to heal It just never works because it never really changed the way I feel. I wear different masks to hide the pain But there's no Chang, there's nothing that I really gain. The pain is still there, and the feelings are just the same. Pain over and over I feel depressed. Heart filled with so much pain It makes me shout and scream in vain Am losing myself, am losing my mind I