dreams of finding oneself

something about the orange hue of a sun tells me life can keep moving forward but it's also a constant reminder of who we are who we live for our ancestors, they weep as we don't do anything but sweep up the consciousness looking for things that we cannot see like love, gentle but yet terrifying it leads to trouble of oneself but it can also make you feel healed like you filled, the person they leer you in like you are just a fish, and they are fisherman sometimes its food, or it's just their mood I do not seem to understand what.. love can bring you. this warm feeling in this heart of mine is never running cold but sometimes it pains me more everyday every night, I fight in my dreams wondering why am I willing to be loved.. is it a reward, or is it karma? I may never understand.. but until then I'll search for these missing pieces of myself broken like a puzzle some pieces, I've lost But I find them nearby underneath the furniture the furniture we made together, and I smile to myself wondering "where are you now?.." the missing pieces, are pieces I cannot replace but someday I will. I know it because I feel it. all I need to do is glue the puzzle and make it into a picture that it is and put it into a frame. it's all up to you what you do. tell me love.. ,what do you desire from this broken man I am?