doubt

I haven't been able to focus I'm lost in thought most of the day and night manic and racing unaware of not only mine but also your panic.... trying and trying to figure out a solution to your demons and mine. Bruided and battered in beat down Broken and aching selfish for making you listen to my fears and doubts the endless spinning tornado nothing worth speaking into existence not today so done am I with your resistance. ... pursuing not a single damn idea a thought or hell even a lie.... don't get to close stay please I can't take it I can't I need you too much soul mates always have been from the first touch pulsing beats of my heart murmuring within and without stuttering on words with no meaning intent on helping you yet you know what intentions get us we end up just where we are stranded in doubt....