do's and die

tw: suicide i here the bridges whispering 'dont walk by' so i bite my tongue close my eyes listen to the music and dont jump dont jump dont jump and i here the blades hissing 'an easy escape' but i shake my hands take a step breath in and out and dont slit dont slit dont slit and my meds are screaming 'sleeping forever' and i sit down think of her shed a tear and i try and i try and i try (and maybe die)