Dont put on me more pain

I cant take it anymore. You put me in here. Again... And i already dont like it. Hate it because anger issues getting stronger. And i start push true friends away. I hate it! Why you put me here again!! I asked drowning in my tears.. My thoughts abt the commit suicide. Getting stronger. And im scared to do it. I dont know what to do.. Im scared.. Please rescue me away from this...