DON'T LOOK BENEATH THE SURFACE

You love all my smiles when we go on our little outings, But when I get home, I drown in my own tears. You chuckle when I sing my favourite songs at the top of my lungs, But I cry myself to sleep understanding the meaning behind the lyrics. You marvel at the easiness I have with certain things, But actually, it's just because I make no room for mistakes. You like when I tell you about the stories and characters of my books, But they're one of the few things that keep me sane these days. You might think I have everything figured out, that I don't have any doubts, But I don't even know where my place in this world is. And when I look in the mirror, I see a girl brimming with joyfulness, But as I stare at my reflection, I also catch a glimpse of the remains of those devastating battles...