do you know me

If you really knew you would know this is not me, The thing inside what posses me feels so cold and sad fueld by heartache and destined for revenge it's hardly manageable to co-exist in this world for the reason is from what's inside. pushed down, pills down to drowned out this demon inside but I fear its growing for I can feel it consuming every part of my being for each space it seems to fill the love I have becomes to feel less and less and eventually to no more. why can't I be normal why can't I be ereased