do you hate me so much?

why is it so hard for you to laugh in my presence do you hate me so much you have to teach me such lessons? lessons that tell me I'm not enough constantly seeking your love but this road I'm on is tough rough around the edges, no doubt I'm trying my best not to be loud but these words keep spilling out my mouth it's hard to see you through the crowd it makes me wonder if I'm allowed to go atop a hill and shout what my love for you was all about but then again, it's all for the clout this all makes me want to pout you never could go a day without making everything in my mind go south