do I have a soulmate?

I feel alone with all these emotions. It feels surreal.I dont know...what to do anymoree-or-orr, so what do i do when im alone? Im just suffocated screaming, yelling, stuck in a closet all alone I wonder where you are... are you real, are u there? Are u just another foe..? or is everyone a foe?Are you nice? Are you scared? Or are u just another foe... OR are u a friend??! Are u light? Are u gold? Will u judge when I'm alone..? Do i need to fake a smile..? I'm trapped, stuck in a prejudiced family... Will I ever find my soulmate or am i bind to be alone..?