DO I EXIST FOR YOU...!?

I write you lines with heart and flame, But maybe to you, they sound the same. Like static words from someone near, Not love that's whispered, bold and clear. I check my phone a thousand times, Each second echoes in silent chimes. A message from you my breath held tight, But you reply when it feels right. I send you texts when I'm alone, Or lost within a crowded zone. The world fades out, it's only you But do you feel that silence too? Do you wait like I do, day and night? Does your chest burn when I'm out of sight? Or am I just a Heating thought, Convenient when your peace is sought? My words spill out like open seas, While yours are scattered, gone with ease. I build a home in every time, Yet wonder-do you cross that line? Is love for you a gentle art, Or just a game that breaks my heart? Was God cruel, did he just miss, To gift me pain instead of bliss? So tell me now, be bold, be true Do I mean half as much to you? Or am I just a way to flee, From silence, not a place to be? -Saishankar