Disregard

Suicide letters and lullabies..  Sinister shadows and long drawn out goodbyes.. I mirror your movements.. Still, it never changes the way truth hits.. This wasn't an act of faith.. Circumstance held no sway over the day you walked away.. Simple and forthright, you made sure the blade was deep and twisted tight.. For every beautiful day of yours, I suffer a sleepless and lonely night.. My flesh can be found beneath the nails on your fingers.. Funny thing though, a monster's blood forever lingers..  So meticulous.. Intricate.. Premeditated...  Only, for all the planning you never considered my insatiable desire to watch as my life catches fire.  So isn't it just like me to get swept away in my own catastrophe.. So deep in the current that I actually believed my lungs were burning for oxygen.. Then it all made sense again, how could you hurt something I didn't have to begin with.. The real me is only an urban myth.. You thought you could change me, foolish girl.. Tisk tisk.. Try and save me at your own risk..