disgusted by my choices

so many undeserving people have touched my body. so many unappreciative people have seen my soul. so many unpleasant people have had the pleasure of being in my presence. but I am still inconsistent with surrounding myself with what what I deserve with what I pray for day in and day out I find myself slipping back into my old habits of attracting or being attracted to what I deem as below average for me the bare minimum below the bare minimum monsters.