DISAPPOINTED

I starved myself because eating made me sleepy and i had so much to so i found my sadness into place, believing i couldn't work if i felt joy or excitement. i kept pleasing everyone around me just to feel seen because i was lonely, insecure and didn't know how to value myself looking back i see now the one who mistreated me wasn't anyone else it was me. Now I owe myself the biggest apology for every moment i abandoned my own heart in the name of survival "Maybe in another universe i won't ruin everything by being emotionally difficult" and the biggest curse of having an overthinking mind and a sensitive heart!