disappear

do you feel it sometimes? that empty feeling that makes you feel like you need to just disappear? when you're lying on your bed and suddenly you're dead inside you want to delete everything your profiles on social media your notes in your diary yourself from the world? not that I want to be dead or something like that sometimes i just need few minutes without everyone, everything to just breath and enjoy that moment on your life and that day you thought will be different I said, I don't care about my grades because I don't, why? I don't think they are something that will make me cry or happy for hours I said, I am tired and I say it everyday because I am, why? well, not from not sleeping enough (maybe, but that's not what I am talking about) but from everything else from my family and my friends from school and from work from everything and from nothing from people and from noone from me and from my brain my heart is saying one thing but my brain other thing but, what am I supposed to do when I am so tired to just think clearly?!