Devours

How can I undo this pain I mean, It's crippling, the way it exist it's hard to describe I've lived with it for a while now my childhood solidified that the things I've seen the things I've endured It created this sadness this emptiness I feel I remember being young ready to leave the nest ready to escape I would play with my dolls and create a world that was mine no one could touch it not even you This world has grown now since I've become an adult I can't even separate what's real but being an adult hurts just as well so into this world I've created People don't know I'm not happy They don't know I'd rather stay home sleep all day struggle to find the will to write this sadness affects everything I use to know for sure I wanted to be a writer But my sadness keeps me still keeps me silent I wanna apologize to myself Everytime but why I just keep doing it it just keeps happening I fall off a cliff in my imagination free falling for eternity And it all started with this one person my sadness all because you couldn't or didnt know how to love a female child with creative thoughts Now, my creative thoughts have collected engulfed me because reality is too hard life is too hard Sadness devours me