detachment

I don't know what to have emotion about or how to feel emotional about someone or something why should I feel this attachment to someone who always been detached to me one should become unavailable a real ability of emotional loss that can be consuming to the end with it because nobody does not give no f**** no more about who we love or who we cherish about why should I simply why should I simply keep giving a f*** about but whoop-dee-doo I don't know what to feel anymore emotionally and I don't know what to feel dream about mentally but gaslighting me it's only going to get to get you left behind you show me more than once that you don't want me you show me more than one that you don't need me you show me more than once that I was never important to you and into your eyes like they say people say what their mouth say but your eyes is the lie detector test why should I keep on relying or snakes in the Grass without the sound of the rattles why me I'm crying pour my heart out to someone I love dearly and very much once you say the number one word f****** there's any more please in my heart anymore for you my heart was from happiness it's a cold hearted my heart work from beating a 1,000's into 5% of nothing