desperately hopeful

I don't know if I have been in denial or to consume by all the negative going around me. that the one thing I long for the most, I might be losing. seeing it start to slip from me. this is a precious life so innocent, and who I see is also fighting for a way to survive. realizing the harm I have cause someone who didn't deserve it. being connected to one another, you have been giving me signs that you are still here and want a chance to live. sad that despite all the harm he has done to us, you are still fighting to stay strong. I desperately hope that you can make it. Sorry for not being a stronger person and not realizing the signs you were giving me sooner. please hold on as much as you can. I will try and rest more so you can have a better chance.