desperate mental image

desperate a feeling, showing, or involving a hopeless sense that a situation is so bad as to be impossible to deal with. desperate is what they say to me withering this one word feeling my mind degrade into the long lost kid who watched his father and mother miss use the two hands that once held his head and healed his heart but now frozen sitting down in complete disparity for these hands digg deep demolishing dignity and destroying determination once built tall now seemingly crashing to dust wishing he held half as much hungry desires to walk the thin bordered line between desperateness and duality of mind and body who conquers you in a endless slavery with the single thought that you where not the demonic shadow who stalks my every move