desire to be more

A gloomy world designed by mine Everything working well and fine Morning begins with enthusiasm Night passes with sleepy eyes until I met a phase of mine where I met in me a deep decline then suddenly everything froze temptation to be more arose to be more elegant ,to be more unstoppable,to shine more bright and to be more capable but not everything works the way you desire more I wanted to speak out loud much more they supress my voice in crowd the more I tried to explain myself the more they attempted to prove me wrong those beautiful and sleepy eyes became nightless the world I constructed was crushed in those battles battle my heart and brain were never ready to tackle then desire to be more became need to survive those desires that were never mine made my world just a place to justify