Depressed

What do I do God. I can't leave, don't you get it. I'll miss him so much. Please, God, help me. Fix all this, please. I beg you, Lord, please help me. I know you help everyone, so please help me. I can't say farewell to my fur baby. I know I had to send him to a shelter cause I can't afford to get him fixed. But I can't let go and I can't go please don't let me be depressed. I will be if I have to say goodbye to Fawn and move away.