depressed

have you ever felt depressed before like you know the write way to go but every step you take is wrong like its quite even when its loud like its wanting to go to your home when your already there it feels like your dead inside but you don't wanna live and wanna die it feeling like you know your a replacement hove you felt like your on the eage of the clif one step away from death have you felt like your smiling even when your done well thats how depression is you care to much or you don't care at all