Demon at my door

Knock knock knock,my mind has someone at the door. But I ignore it the best I can,I know exactly what they're knocking for. My mind's been racing,back n forth I'm pacing,it was a matter of time and they'd be coming. I let depression get the best of me,and anxiety starts to turn my stomach It's getting hard to function,I'm overthinking and a little bit confused. My problems hit me all at once,now I'm instantly in a different mood. Bang bang bang,I'm debating and they're still waiting outside,screaming with some urgency. Promising they just wanna help,but last time it was hurting me. Reminiscing of the pain,how I sunk into an abyss. If you've ever begged for mercy,that type of torment won't compare to this. every night I'm drenched in tears,unanswered question still nothing's clear. I die a little more inside,fighting tryna face my fears. BOOM BOOM BOOM,now they're kicking at the door with vengeance. Shaking up my brain,the next one might come off the hinges. My jaw clenches,now the panic is about to take effect. I look into the mirror trying hard to get myself in check. All the hard work I did today. Still didn't make them go away. chills goin down my vertebrae. this is how I became the renegade.