deepest of the night

in there , I sobed! but who knows? behind my shut doors. the pains I couldn't share the thought strangles me even in my tears I found no relief in my isolation I felt the deepest of the pain like an arrow I was shot right into my heart then I bleed who can see my wound? the world has destroyed me my loved once the master planners even my lover remain eth put can I ever heal in my world of pains. but this is me I no know joy. I reflects pains. hurts, I emits I doubt! tomorrow I might never see the pains ran deep into my bones