Deepest darkest hours

In light here's some dark And in dark there's pain When i think of life i see gain Of unfairness and uncertainty Why should I be here For what,if i gain anger in pain Living hell is here and another so to speak My metal state in flames And i really want not to be the blame I feel alone in my soul What is here to see or to get back on If i fall For it may also go away Life gets difficult by the second Hated by many but only loved by a few Maybe it's sweets and fun for you guys but for me it's pain in disguise Disguise one i put on outside but breaks off inside Only at the the beginning that I already see the end of this life that I'm leaving inside which makes me not want to be alive or is it the loneliness that I feel when I'm not in light comparisons I always being made in my mind so that I see who is better than me my mind and my thoughts are always in drops off Pops in the flocks of thoughts inside IDOLA2 🥂