decisions

strong. a word adults use to praise me, was it strong to leave for a selfish reason? or was it stupid. words spoken by the one who was supposed to love me no matter what slice deeper then the knife I hold. was I strong to leave this women who hates the world. was I strong or selfish? the scars, some evident some hidden. was I selfish to leave... WAS I SELFISH TO LEAVE! it repeats over and over always there no matter how faint. the smell of liquor on her breath still lingering like a curse. a curse or a blessing? I left one for the other. mother for father. was it right? was it wrong? some say I was a coward. they don't know me. I thought it would teach a lesson, I was wrong it was a permanent decision, I must live with that decision for the rest of my life. was it strong or selfish?