December

Sweet lies Fake smiles Pain in my eyes Covered in happines Smile wrinkles Birthmarks Youre poisionous Am I? Intense heart Screaming for love Screaming for a fantasy The impossibility All I can see Is blood in the snow Where you should be My christmas miracle Who killed you? Who killed me? Drama queen Covered in trauma Deep in my soul Longing for parents attention I used to think These feelings have died Never wanted Now i dont know what i want Nothing feels real How it is supposed to be? Don't reply to me I might hide away Cut my throat Head in the snow Im scared  I won't be okay on my own