death on my own bed

lifeless as I am my life drives me nuts all I think is why the fuck did I end up here lonely in my heart and soul the words I wanna say they are all frozed my heart is cold as I lay lifeless on the floor my door to abyss is shining bright white it's closing in it's coming too fast when my back is against the wall everything i thought will fall I had the power to get help but I realized the help I needed was you as my pen hits this pad I hope I wake up with a smile and say I'm glad I made it through oh no I slipped I didn't make it thru death on my own bed I didn't make it through