Death

I never knew how death felt like until today. How I live and yet my soul is dead... my hell on earth. All I feel is emptiness, such a void that nothing in this world can fill... Why have I come this Low? How can God not be done with me after all this time? Even though I'm so sick and tired of myself, He hasn't left me... My Lust, My Guilt, My Shame, My Pride, My Emotions, My Sinful Pleasures keep me away. They keep me so distant from him....