Dearest dad

If you knew me now, would you stay or flee, Like you did before, leaving me in misery. Let me catch you up on what you missed, My favourite colours pink and singing bring me peace. The things that make me cry, it's you It's strange to be angry at a man unknown, But your absence in my life has surely grown. What sins did my mother commit, I plea, That made you choose to abandon me. Did you know I'd be named Helen, Or were you too busy drowning in beer? Where were you when I needed you the most, To tell me you loved me, to guide me and boast. I fell in and out of love, all on my own, Passed my exams, and I've grown. Lost and found friends along the way, People who love and care, brightening my day. My 19th birthday is yet to come, and it's still going to be without you And college awaits, I'll make it through. But still, I'm angry, I can't deny, That you know nothing about me, though you should try. Choosing alcohol over me, time and again, Before you leave, answer me. If you knew me now, would you stay Or would you choose the bottle over me,