dear older sister. (1/2)

dear older sister, I hate you. I hate who you were 10 years ago. I hate who you are today. I hate who you will be in 10 years. I hate your personality. I hate the way you present yourself. I hate your lifestyle. I hate the drugs you take. I hate the slurs you use. I hate your fried hair. I hate your friends. I hate your real sister. I hate your stepmother. I hate your dad. I hate your oldest brother. I hate your boyfriends. I hate your car. I hate your house. I hate the sound of your voice. when I was around 1-3 years old, you purposefully poured soda over my head, you threw toys of mine out a car window. when I was around 4 you gave me a bath, you poured the soapy water over my head and into my eyes without a single care I knew I hated you then, but I didn't have a real reason yet. when I was 6 you had your first child, you'd come over with him covered in food scraps and dirty diapers I hated you then too. when I was 9 you had your second child, we barely got to see him in his first year of life, you were strung out and you left your first child to take care of him- at 5 years old I hated you more. - ☆ PART ONE OF TWO ☆