dear mom.

You left me behind. Completely out of mind. You left your family and me. Maybe it's because I was never meant to be. Im sorry if I was a mistake. I never meant to stay awake. I question if I should have died that night. But you saved me, and yet you look at me like that. Im sorry for not having perfect grades. For being mean and not fitting your shades. For not having motivation and feeling out of place. But all I ever wanted was to lay in your embrace. The hatred in your eyes so vivid. It hurts even tho I hate to admit it. I dont feel like your child, just like a burden. An imperfection in your life that you have to endure.