Dear God, help me!

Lord, I'm writing to You today since my mouth feels nothing. I'm sorry for not praying this morning. I'm sorry for not reading my Bible today. I'm sorry for treating You like an option. I'm sorry for being negative today. I'm sorry for crying when I should have spoken to You. I'm sorry for thinking instead of reading Your word. I'm sorry for being sorry. I'm sorry for being a sinner. I'm sorry for thinking that life doesn't matter anymore. I need Your help, Lord. I'm suffering from something, Lord. I don't know what it is but I can feel it. The numbness, The negative thoughts, The inactivity. I need Your help, Lord. Dear God, help me! Help Your sinful daughter. Help her. Please... Help me! I need You right now. Don't let me down, Lord. I know You're reading this too. Help me.