dear blade

you look at me & haunt my thoughts wishing I'd pick you up to get a better look to feel your sharp edges against my skin to make lines, to make me bleed you say "wana feel something?" so meany times that I don't even remember what you feel like what you do to my mind & body how you will ruin me with these memories, & forever be on my skin it's just one more time. your very dull, I've had you for years I couldn't dare get rid of you now. as much as I'm numb to your feeling, I'll never get enough of the numbness. because for the first time in my life, you've made me feel something, like I was in control. mabye someday, we'll part away, I'll bring you to a lake. & won't think twice. I'll throw you in. watching you sink. I won't come back I will let you drown. Just like you've drowned me in the puddles of my own blood and tears