Dead Beat

I'm changing into a monster and it's easy to tell, turning into a demon from the pits of hell, my lover boy personality has been torn, after watching those I love walk out the door, for my emotions have gone cold, my emotions that were so bold are leaving into the pits of my heart, CAN I JUST RESTART? PLEASE? IM NOT READY TO LEAVE, I DONT WANT TO HURT PEOPLE ALL BECAUSE I CANT SEE, never mind it's not worth it, they made me this way, there gonna have to deal with it, right?, WRONG, IF YOU REALLY HATE YOURSELF GO WRITE A SONG, DONT TURN OFF YOUR HEART, PROVE THAT YOU ARE STRONG, but I'm not, for I am a demon from hell, the boy that watched his world crash and didn't yell, for I've made a mistake when all I wanted to do was be held.