day by day.

lord why am I still here. I always wanted to be the top knotch In my click. started out young thought by now I'd be rich had a dream as to where I'd be by the time I was 23. happy? naw not me. depression and misery aches my body daily prayer is "God please take me". I was loosing my mind slowly. life has been he'll for me I know I don't deserve it. God where are you are you mad at me? wanting to harm myself I finally fell to my knees river of tears running down my face and I felt a sense of fear. but it was a beautiful fear feeling I knew it was Jesus. he said " my daughter I am not upset with you. you worship me. I give you this life because these are situations that you can achieve. your life is your blessing. the fact that you can wanna die and still smile and help the next person is a blessing. my daughter I'm you and you are me. so wipe your tears for I will never leave. there will be another challenge that I need you to work on now. be strong for I am carrying you. but always remember to take it day by day in all things.