Darkness

Every day, I wake up with an empty hole eating my heart from the inside out,a dark fermented fog lingers my mind as I go throughout the day.It feels like no matter what I do the constant shadow that follows me will never disappear,not even with the brightest mindset.All my efforts cease into nothingness while my grades decrease,and decrease,and decrease,"Stop being lasy" they say "You're being dramatic" they say.They don't know what it feels like to wake up feeling useless,helpless,and lost,not being able to be happy.I am trying,I'm trying my best to do as much as I can,though it still feels like I'm barely scratching the surface of accomplishment,why is it so hard just to live,to be happy. I don't get it.